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Jun. 23rd, 2008 01:36 pm I can't settle down on one blog site

So I'm moving again! I'm over at blogger now (not that anyone actually reads this, but I'm leaving a trail anyways)



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Mar. 1st, 2007 08:17 pm after a really long hiatus...

I'm back!
I was inspired by a myspace blog of an artist that I really enjoy, so I decided to write about....the future. thats right, miss live-in-the-moment is thinking about later in life...and its really really really scary. I'm 17 years old, and the one thing I want to do is perform, why do I always choose the hard paths? Why must I only be truly happy when I'm on stage? Why can't I be more...I dunno, realistic, worldly, anything? you see, sometimes it's my dearest wish that I would be able to be happy being a doctor or a lawyer, but I know that I'd be miserable for the rest of my life...I'm to much of a right brainer for that. When I'm in an "I can do anything" state of mind, I want to see my name on a broadway playbill, when I'm in an "Oh God, how will I survive" mood, I want to just be able to find something I'll enjoy that will give me an income to survive off of. Am I the only one who ever thinks like this? It seems that everyone I know either has all their plans laid out, or they don't really care.

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Sep. 28th, 2006 10:14 pm Melancholy

Don't ask me why, but I'm feeling slightly depressed again. I'm ever so slightly miserable, I think its cuz its that time of month again...I dunno...maybe. I'm going to go to bed now...night
Love Peace La Vie Boheme

Current Location: my basement
Current Mood: melancholymelencholy
Current Music: "Photograph" by Nickleback

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Sep. 26th, 2006 09:43 pm I can really think...even though I'm high

I should let you know, I haven't been getting high on purpose, I was using paint remover at tech...and...you know...giggle...

25 questions about life that are a bit deeper than
"whats ur fav lipgloss"

1. What is more difficult for you, looking into someones eyes when you are telling someone how you feel, or looking into someones eyes when they are telling you how they feel?

looking someone in the eye when I'm telling someone how I feel

2. Think of the last time you were REALLY angry. WHY were you angry? Do you still feel the same way?

I can think of minor angers...I'm not sure if I've been REALLY angry in a while...save when I about attacked my boss with a banana knife.

3. You are on a flight from Honolulu to Chicago non-stop. There is a fire in the back of the plane. You have enough time to make ONE phone call. Who do you call? What do you tell them?

I'd call my mom, tell her I love her, and tell her to tell Caiti I wish we could have resolved our differences

4. You are at the doctor's office and he has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? What do you do with your remaining days? Would you be afraid?

I'd tell my friends and family that I was going to die...and not to be sad...because I'll be partying in heaven, then I'd fly to Georgia and get Jason, then we'd fly to NYC and see all of the broadway shows we both love.

5. You can have one of the following two things. Which do you choose? Why? Love or Trust?

Love...because without love, there is no life. I don't have to trust someone to love them

6. You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late even once more, you are fired. Do you take the time to save the dogs life? Why or Why not?

I'd save the dog...life is to important to waste over a job.

7. Would you rather be hurt by the one you trust the most or the one you love the most?

Love...if I really trust someone, it hurts more than if its just someone I love.

8. Your best friend confesses that he/she has feelings for you more then just friendship. He/she is falling in love with you. What do you ( or did you ) do/say?

It depends on how I feel towards said person.

9. Think of the last person who you know that died. You have the chance to give them 1 hour of life back, but you have to give up one year of yours. Do you do it? Why or Why not?

No...I know that sounds cruel and harsh, but no.

10. Are you the kind of friend that you would want to have as a friend?

I think so, I'm trustworthy, and loyal, and I guess I'm pretty nice most of the time.

11. Does love = sex?


12. Your boss tells your coworker that they have to let them go because of work shortage, and they are the newest employee. You have been there much longer. Your coworker has a family to support and no other means of income. Do you go to your boss and offer to leave the company? Why or Why not?

Yes...I support just myself, and there's always other places, someone needs the job more than I do.

13. When was the last time you told someone HONESTLY how you felt regardless of how difficult it was for you to say? Who was it? What did you have to tell the person?

I don't know...when I told Jessica that I really like someone else.

14. What would be harder for you to tell a friend, you love them or that you do not love them back?

I tell my friends I love them all the time. but if we are refering to [i]Eros[/i]then I'd say its harder to say I love them.

15. What do you think would be the hardest thing for you to give up? Why would it be hard to lose?

right now...it'd be theatre, since my whole life revolves around it...its where my friends come from...what I do in my spare time...aand basically my love.

16. Excluding romantic love, when was the last time you told someone you loved them. Who were they to you?

Mary LaFrance...conversation went like this

Mary: I'm leaving for real this time!
Sarah: I LOVE YOU MARY! ~kiss cheek~
Mary: I LOVE YOU TOO SARAH! ~kiss cheek~
Sarah: see ya tomorrow lovely!

oh yeah, she's one of my buddies.

18. Imagine. it is a dark night, you are alone, it is raining outside, you hear someone walking around outside your window. WHO do you wish was there with you?

Jason Wilson...because I miss him.

19. Would you give a homeless person CPR if they were dying?

No, because I don't know CPR

21. You are holding onto your grandmothers hand and the hand of a newborn that you do not know as they hang over the edge of a cliff. You have to let one go to save the other. Who do you let fall to their death? What was your rationale for making the decision?

I'd save my grandma...thats a hard decision, but I love her so much, and I almost lost her once, and couldn't stand it, I never want to really lose her.

22. Are you old fashioned?

Kinda...not really...about somethings I am.

23. When was the last time you were nice to someone and did NOT expect anything in return for it?

All the time.

24. Which would you choose, true love with a guarantee of a broken heart, or never loved at all? Why?

right now, I'd want love...ask me in about a month, and my answer probably will have changed.

25. If you could do anything or wish anything, what would it be?

be able to support myself acting.

Current Location: my basement
Current Mood: highhigh
Current Music: some pop crap on my sister's radio

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Aug. 13th, 2006 10:05 pm I've made it.

It has been 365 days since we officially moved to Rapid City South Dakota.
this is my retrospective of the past year...it'll be long, so fasten your seatbelts.
August pretty much sucked. I was abosolutely miserable, as was the rest of my family, I hadn't started school yet and knew absolutely no one. I joined marching band in august.
September was the first month of school. Again I was miserable, Andrew LaFrance was pretty much the only person who talked to me on my first day, well, him and Meagan. I tried not to show everyone here how miserable I was, but I was crying myself to sleep on a regular basis.
October things started to look up. Caiti Casey and I became good friends, I met Shane in Mr. Siebrasse's room and began to appreciate my drama class. On the other hand, we had our first choir concert in October, which SUCKED, although everyone said that they loved it. I missed Ms. Schatz and Mrs. Knutson more than anyone else I think. Halloween I met miss Felicia Jones...yeah...
November...I was starting to make friends, and my grades in English began to really slip...I decided to switch English classes mid year. I basically hung out with Caiti all the time, we lived off of little caeser's pizza and movies. November 23rd was the first time I saw Rent. completely amazing experiance, I loved it so much.
December...I was so busy with concerts I couldn't breathe. I was going insane about the inexcusable lack of preperation we had for the civic center concert, and had an emotional breakdown that morning at rehearsal. the holiday season was making me homesick for our traditions and rituals we had built up through the 10 years we lived in Sheridan. We went back there for my 16th birthday, and the people who helped raise me threw me a surprise party.
January, things began to get stressed between Caiti and I, unbeknowst to me there was conflict rising in the ridiculous and convoluted church politics that I was thrust into. I was basically trying to make sense of my life and begin to actually enmesh myself with Rapid City, instead of just settling in.
February marked the start of Lutheran Youth Musical and the disentigration of the friendship between Caiti and I. I had my second experiance with a friend abandoning me because of who my father was. I felt really stupid because I had made only one true friend in Rapid City, and she turned around and stabbed me in the back.
March, I auditioned for Cyrano de Bergerac, and didn't get in. The night that Mr. Siebrasse posted the results I went home and cried for hours. I think it the combination of losing Caiti, and losing a role in the play that did me in. I then believe I did the best thing I could have done, I shook myself off and began to do tech, which was one of the most challenging and rewarding things I've ever done.
April, from mid march all the way through April and May I was completely overtaken by theatre. The night after Cyrano closed and we struck the set rehearsals started for the musical Baby. april was basically me juggling school and rehearsal every night of the week.
May. we had a 3 week run of baby starting may 5th. I was completely consumed with performing. one week I had Baby on sunday, a pops concert on monday and tuesday, and baby on wednesday through the next sunday. I was happy. really happy. At the end of may some old friends came to rapid city so my dad could marry them. Jason came from georgia to be in his dad's wedding, and it was the first time I'd seen him in about a year and a half.
June was incredibly busy. right after finals I left to go to synod assembly, then the night I got back was graduation, we were leaving the next morning for a mission trip, and that week was caiti's birthday, so on a whim I decided to bring her a birthday present, hoping it might mend some bridges. it didn't. I got my job in June and started working at DQ
July, basically working at DQ and hanging out at home. I didn't do much of anything
August I worked. and worked. and worked. we put my dog to sleep, and I quit my job on friday, my last day is August 23. I still sometimes get homesick, but for the most part, I'm happy, I really am.
Love Peace La Vie Boheme

Current Location: basement
Current Mood: accomplishedaccomplished
Current Music: blessed silence

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Aug. 8th, 2006 06:06 pm Idgie

Luftnase Idgie Threadgoode AKA "Idgie"

We'll miss ya baby.
Love Peace La Vie Boheme

Current Location: basement
Current Mood: sadsad
Current Music: Rent, Rent OBC

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Aug. 6th, 2006 10:43 pm its final

we're going to call the vet first thing tomorrow.

Current Mood: sadsad

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Aug. 6th, 2006 12:00 am woo hoo.

This week has been interesting. For some unknown reason I'm not allowed to put my hands in my pockets when I'm at work. Don't ask me why...talk to my psychotic manager Steve.

My papa had hernia surgery tuesday, so he's been kinda mostly laid up all week. I've been having fun kinda sorta, cuz we've been able just to hang out after I got home from work...for the first time in a while we actually had a conversation that wasn't about chores or church or etc. We did go and see X-Men 3 today because he was going insane with cabin fever.

My sisters were in Colorado for the last week visiting my other set of grandparents...they've been to Sheridan, Illinois, and Denver, oh yeah, and Rosebud this summer...and I've just been to Rosebud...stupid work. they're now at a their friend's sleepover birthday party. It's hard to admit that my sisters are preps, I haven't quite wrapped my head around it, but the fact that they don't come thrift store shopping with me anymore and they wear clothes from aeropostle and american eagle makes it painfully clear that they have switched to the dark side.

My 14 year old lab Idgie is not doing so well...she won't eat her dog food, I have to hand feed her venison if we want her to eat anything...she also has stopped asking to go out and will shit in the house 5-6 times daily. We've been discussing putting her down rather seriously, I understand this, but it will be really hard for me. idgie has been the best dog ever for many years and I will miss her so much. I had hoped that this day wouldn't come until I had moved out of the house, but I guess that was to much to ask for.

On a more trivial note, my iPod hates me. the stupid thing has been trying to die for months now. I have to face facts that I need to shell out some bucks and get something new...but I'm not gonna like that fact. Thats the reason I'm up at 12:15 when I have to be at the church at 7:30 tomorrow, to get my fucking iPod to let me play my tunes...since if I don't have music going its incredibly difficult to get my mind to stop thinking and let me sleep. That reminds me of this monologue I did last year, the first line was "I can't stop thinking today." I think I'm going to let the iPod process overnight and I'll check on it first thing tomorrow, so, night all.
Love Peace La Vie Boheme

Current Location: Basement
Current Mood: thoughtfulIntrospective
Current Music: blessed silence

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Jul. 29th, 2006 10:35 pm today

woah, its way too hot here! It was sitting nicely at over a hundred for most of the day, and I'm soooo sweaty its not even funny. I started on my first RPG today...I've always wanted to do one, but the task always seemed so daunting that I never went through with it. Also today, my father and I worked on a habitat house. I'm getting really good at sheetrocking, at the last 2 builds I've worked on we've done sheetrocking. I cut and hung like 4 pieces by myself, I was really proud. I love doing stuff like that because I like knowing I just did something that will really make a difference for people. Not to mention it gives me construction experiance for building sets. Ugh, I have this lovely zit right under my nose, and it hurts like hell. I hate summer because I always break out. I think its all the sweat. I wish the computer up in my air conditioned room had internet, but it doesn't. Damn. Oh well, I think I'm gonna go read now...
Love Peace La Vie Boheme

Current Location: basement
Current Mood: thirstythirsty
Current Music: Avenue Q OBC

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Jul. 21st, 2006 12:30 am

I should be in bed, but I haven't even been up for 12 hours yet. I slept in SOOOOO late today, that my mom woke me up when she came home for lunch. I've been thinking a lot about Rent today...more-so than usual even...I don't know why. Oh yeah, no one was in the house today, so I turned on my musical mix and blasted it while singing at the top of my lungs...it didn't sound to good, but I wasn't worried about quality, it just felt good to be singing again. I probably did break some glass today...uh oh...lol. I don't have to be at work until 11:30 tomorrow, I'm excited that I get an extra hour of sleep...then it's the weekend, and on saturday I'm going thrift shopping. OOOOOO something cool happened. I was rummaging through one of my dad's dresser drawers today because he sometimes puts my UW hoodie in his drawer cuz it looks a lot like his, but anyways, I found a hoodie that looks a lot like the sweat shirt that adam pascal wore during one song glory! it has a hood instead of a collar, but it looks a lot alike. mom said I could have it because dad never wears it. its really hot down here now, so I'm going up to my bedroom b/c it has air conditioning, so
Love Peace La Vie Boheme

Current Location: basement
Current Mood: hothot
Current Music: Schadenfreude, Avenue Q

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